This is amazing.
In the seventh grade I started experiencing feelings of extreme anxiety. This soon developed into obsessive habits, which I guess could be labeled as “obsessive compulsive disorder”. It’s grown to be worse and worse and worse, sometimes it lessens, and sometimes it’s crippling, to the point where I don’t eat or leave the house because I’m unsure of what the “right thing to do” is.
It’s really embarrassing to not be able to chose a restaurant, to pull up to the Wendy’s line, decide Wendy’s is “bad luck” for the night, pull off, drive somewhere else, realize Wendy’s was the right choice, order, and then not be able to even eat the food because all that worrying you did, about mind you, fries, which is what I would have gotten at any place, since that’s all I’m able to eat, made you sick to your stomach, and you end up giving the fries away, looking even dumber, calling someone up, asking them if they want a bag of fries you recently bought.
Anyway, I try really hard to conceal these habits, day in, and day out. One day my mom caught me while feeling real weak mentally and physically, and I broke down, and told her what was going on.
Concerned, and pretty much aware, as it’s obvious to see when your kid is struggling, aka, walking downstairs 4000000000000000000 (too lazy for commas) and checking the locks, refusing to drink certain things, unable to keep up conversations, etc.
She called an old therapist I used to go to. She referred us to a physciatrtic nurse, who handles patients with a holistic approach, and she told me that she was going to offer B12 vitamin shots. I looked it up online, and apparently this really helps with anxiety and the sort.
All the pieces came together……
Every time I go to the doctor, they tell me I am exxxttrreemmmeeellllyyy deficient (lacking) the B12 vitamin. I looked it up online, and tons and tons of stories came up about how people with GAD or OCD expreicend similar problems, and then were cleared once they got B12 in them. B12 is found in all meat and dairy, which I don’t eat. I stopped eating meat in the 7th grade.
life fixed, awesome. this entry is really fucking embarrassing but to find relief is amazing, so right onnn. <3
